Booking in appointment.

It was a little boring, Definately went on a lot longer then it needed too. We filled in tons of paper work, all the usual questions we're asked. Family history etc etc.
I asked about a VBAC as that is what I really wanted to do. First thing she said was, It depends on the consultant I have to if I can have a VBAC. My heart sank a bit. One of the few things I've read on the Internet is that those VBAC consultants are hard to come by. It would be decided on my notes to if we can try. I am holding out hope the consultant is VBAC friendly.
The midwife said I wouldn't be aloud to attempt a HBAC (home birth  after Cesarean), Wouldn't be aloud a water birth and chances are the Dr would want me monitored as much as possible.
Not being funny but that is NOT how I want this birth to go down. I want to go into labour on my own, I want to labour at home as long as I can and then when I do decided its time to go to the hospital I want to be as mobile as possible.
I know the risks of having a VBAC, I also know that my last birth only ended in a C/S because Mia just wasn't ready to be born. Failure to progress is not an option this time around.

However, this is just from the midwife. As I had a C/S with Mia and also had polyhydromnisoisis I am classed as High risk. I am under shared care between the midwife and consultant. I will be seeing the consultant a few times later in pregnancy.

One of the best bits of the booking in date was I got my scan date!!! 8TH AUG I FINALLY SEE MY BABY!! we will also see how many are growing in there. Taking bets now. I will  around 10 weeks and 4 days. So glad its nearly here! I feel I will relax so much more when I see our little poppy seed for the first time and know its all going great.

Hormone Overdrive.

Wow... these pregnancy hormones are CRAZY!

I have cried so much just recently it really is obscene. Everything seems to set me off. It doesn't even have to be sad to set off my waterworks, Happy news gets this crazy preggo crying like a baby.

I feel most embarrassed about crying when I couldn't find Mia's favourite teddy.

Mia wasn't even that upset so my actions we're not justified at all.

What set me off? The look on Mia's face. She just looked sad. Not upset but Sad!

Calm down crazy lady, everything will be okay.

Please tell me the hormones calm down very soon?

7 weeks.

Three weeks today I found out I was pregnant and the line I thought I saw the day before wasnt me being hopful and having line eye.

I wasnt seeing something, there was TWO lines!

Three weeks ago today I cried when I saw the two pink lines on the FRER even though they was faint, there was no denying that line. My heart stopped as I saw it come up. Tears rolled down my face. I couldnt beleive we had finally done it. We had finally conceived, we was finally going to have another baby, we was finally going to give Mia a brother or sister.

 I still get tingles when I look at this photo

Today marks week 7 of a pregnancy I thought I would never have.

Just another 33 weeks to go.

6 weeks 5 days.

How the heck did this happen? In two days I will be 7 weeks pregnant. In two days I have my first appointment in just 7 short days.

I cant beleive its been nearly a month since I got my POSITIVE pregnancy test!

This time last month I was sure I would need to go to the hospital and get my 4th, 5th and 6th rounds of clomid. I was sure  I would be left hurt and angered again at the 'symptoms' I thought I was having. Thinking that yet again they was another bout of phantom symtoms.

It still feels unreal that I have something growing inside me and everytime I go to the toilet I still feel like I am going to come crashing back down to earth with a massive thud and a heartache bigger then any BFN disapointment.

Right now, Not knowing how baby is makes it so hard not to be excited and positive.

Just about five weeks to go and I should get to see poppyseed for the first time.

After that I hope, that I can relax a little more.

In about 5 weeks it also takes me from that first timester danger zone.

Wowza.

Almost at the second trimester.

Grow poppyseed grow.

Sickness.

I have felt pretty nauseated since I found out I was pregnant but the past week it has started to get worse. Past few days it stepped up a notch and I am actually throwing up. Needless to say this is really hitting my energy levels. Right now I have a stinking headache from being so tired - even though I had a two hour nap earlier.

I am also feeling very queasy like I am about to barf again. Blah.

This is not what I was expecting to feel like. I never felt like this when I was pregnant with Mia. Hopefully the few times I have been sick will be the only times this pregnancy I will be sick.

I cant wait to feel normal again as feeling so tired and sickly is taking all the fun away for me.

I tried too long for this not to be an enjoyable ride, However while I cant feel poppyseed move feeling so rubbish makes me feel like its growing nice and strong.

Orange Juice

Its my new best friend. I cant get enough of it.

I keep telling my self it could be a lot worse. At least fresh orange juice is relatively healthy compared to a lot of things.

I am drinking up to a carton a day.

Am I the only person who thinks that, that looks SO GOOD!!!!

Ooh yummy.

I'm not sure if this is a indication on gender of Poppyseed, but when I my eggo was preggo with Mia, I craved sweet things like sour sweeties and chocolate. Completely different this time already and we're only just starting to bake this poppyseed.

6 weeks.

Wow... Time is flying! Two weeks ago today I saw two clear pink lines that confirmed I was pregnant. I cant believe its been two weeks already!! March will be here before we know it.

This past week has been a pretty tough week for me. Poppyseed has sucked any life I have had out of me. I am beyond exhausted. I have had super sore boobs - to the point even just brushing past them makes me yelp in pain, oh and good old all day sickness.

I never really had morning sickness with Mia, so its a new experience for me, especially as I have thrown up a couple of times.

As much as I don't like to feel rubbish I LOVE the fact it means poppyseed is growing nice and strong inside. I am cherishing every second I feel like this.

This week, according to my ticker poppyseed is the size of a sweet pea. I love seeing my ticker change and seeing what size my baby should be. Its amazing how fast they grow. In just 34 short weeks I should have a new born baby. Wow!

6 weeks pregnant also takes me closer to my booking in appointment with the midwife. I have my first appointment in just two short weeks. I am so excited for that appointment as I get my 12 week scan date!!

Appleseed.

I am 5 weeks pregnant today and my baby is now the side of an appleseed! How sweet!!

Its amazing how something so small can make you feel like an alien inside your own body!

I am drinking tons of fresh orange juice and normally i cant stand it! I am constantly tired and feel like I am constantly on a boat. The waves of nausea are crazy. They are worse in the morning when I have just woken up though. I could moan about how crap I am feeling but I wont. I am acutally enjoying every moment of tiredness and sickness. its reasuring to know that at the moment as I cant feel any kicks or anything the rubbishness is confirming that I have a baby growing inside me.

I have also been suffering with a delightful side effect aswell... Constipation! Nothing is more uncomftable then needing to go but not being able to! Was told by my GP if things have not improved by Monday to go back and they will give me some lactolose.